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Jul. 10th, 2007 @ 07:33 pm long time no see again! =P
Current Mood: cheerful
Current Music: Green Day: Holiday
Yeah, it was been a long time, i had hoped to update before i went away and when I knew if i was going to Memma's 17th birthday. sadly i was not and it took a few days to really relax about it. I had hoped to see the gang before i went away to cyprus, but trips up there will need to wait untill august it seems.

Although I can't exactly do an LJ blog without mentioning the Huntingdonshire group ^-^ it seems i was in attendance at Memmas 17th in someway ^-^. I promised I would call them, Debs phone was off and memma left her, bless em. Debs came to my rescue and called me, which promoted me to go online =D and there Memma was, and we had a brief chat, it resulted in a picture of me taken =P online thanks to Debs, which i happily present here. ^-^

Needless to say i was very touched by that, so i offer my huge thanks to both Debbie and Memma for that =) it was really kind and touching, and i will be around for your 18th's partys, both of them, i swear :)

In other news around the boring place otherwise known as yate, im still learning to drive, so im stepping up my lessons so i can learn to drive quickly, my results day is on the 16th, so im scared of that. I went to see Die Hard 4 on saturday, and that was a load of fun, funny and action pakced, Bruce Willis seems to know how to pull it off still.

Packing for my holiday as well, got to bring my iPod, nwo i have managed to fully restore my iTunes Library. Took me Frikkin ages mind you. stupid viruses. Although i've been questing with Kate on WoW, so it's been nice to do something with her again, even if shes not happy with her Tauren character XD

anyway, this will most lilely be my last entry untill i leave for Cyprus on the 13th till the 29th, so i shall see you all soon, and i will give Debs and Memma both a call each to see how things are in the meantime :)

bye bye!!! =)
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Jun. 5th, 2007 @ 08:33 pm Never take your eye off the ball....
Current Mood: optimistic
Current Music: Trivium: ignition
I was given a stark reminder of this yesterday. I was going to do a post a few days ago, inspired by something Katie Stuart had put in her latest entry, but a conbination of a fussy LJ, and fatigue forced me to save it, and then something else happened, so here is an update for you all to look at.

yesterday, the suprising and stupid happened, i caught a virus, and a nasty one at that. I was not sure how I got it, but before long i lost access to everything i had, and i was forced to run n safe mode to give me some space. It was my own fault for not being smart enough to update my anti-vrius programming, and i paid the price. I was forced to do a complete system restore, taking my computer back to it's settings when i first got it. >.<. The embarressment was ten-fold, all my saved games were gone, my iTunes too, and many pictures of which i will not see again. So i was punished for my huge mistake, so if any of you read this, i encourage you to check your anti-virus and spyware programs and keep them updated, or you may end up like me, feeling like your out of everything.

Although, im optimistic as I can recover a lot of what I had done. Most saved games i had not bothered with on my games, so i will relish the chance to get stuck back into Medal of Honour or Command and Conquer 3 again. WoW i ned not worry about. Football Manager I never got into, although on an older version i had a Bristol Rover team i spent 6 seasons with >.< so some hard work is gone. The pictures i did get lucky with. I had many saved on other sources such as my PSP or my Myspace, most of which were wallpapers and pictures from Huntingdon, although i lost a few Huntingdon pics, me and Debs had saved many on other sources. Debs was quite helpful, as she normally was, I had called her up earlier and we had a nice chat, it was nice to speak to my lil sis again! ^-^ and she has Credit on her mobile! =D. When i was panicking about the virus, she presented me with some new pics on her deviantart, which calmed me down, and im glad that many memories of my visits with her have not been lost, in fact a few more are downstairs so i can recover those =) Debs, you really helped me out, and im forever in your debt and greateful! Youyr just the most amazing friend ever! love ya Lil Sis!

The only other thing which i was sad to lose was the Star trek Theme Kate put on my computer 2 years ago. I had been so used to it, and now it was gone, as well as many other Star trek images. So im sorry it had to go like that Kate. =(, but hey, if you get an hour, maybe you can trekify my PC again! =D, we can have a laugh and catch up ^-^

so yes, im getting back to normal, im laughing it off, so lets look to the future

Keep the faith guys

Chris
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May. 3rd, 2007 @ 10:00 pm Tense >.
Current Mood: frustrated
My first update of May, and sadly it's not a good one.

reason, im fustraited beyond all end, i have been slaving away on a DT project all week trying to get it finished, and i finally did this morning, after constant work since monday! >.< A-Levels are so demanding and these last 2 years have really taken a toll on me. No matter what i seem to try, i just can't fit in. I wonder if it comes from living in a shitty boring town, having people who don't really get you, and people who won't help you to fnd your place down here. I've said ti before, and i will say it again, I wish i lived in Huntingdon. Up there it;s like family, debbie understands me and has helped me introduce me to a lot of people up there, and i've kept in touch with Si, Liam, Abz, Emma, Hel and Mousie. It's much mroe understanding there and much more open and friendly. Down in sodding Yate it's like a wall which stops me dead, and the walls an unlucky wall which stops me from just having some nice things happening in Yate, Huntingdons a lucky and happy place.

But i can't live there yet, im feeling like im stuck in a dead end at times with no chance of escape, i just want to find something to twist and curl up and just vent my anger on, im not talking about murder, like getting one of those plastic bottles and beating that up. I want to call Debbie, but shes with Liam and im not sure if i want to bother her or not. I can't take being stuck here. I have messed so many things up. I have no-one to love imtimatley, no-one who can cuddle up to me and whisper to me, no-one to be there to support me and to try and keep me calm. I have not been able to express myself. I;ve been forced to bottle everything up and this is the result, massive outbursts which i can't control anymore. Im trying to have a successful life. But what goods that if i have no-one to love, nothing to keep me going or nothing to help keep me occupied.
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Apr. 30th, 2007 @ 08:19 pm helloo
Current Mood: cheerful
Current Music: Trivium: The Anthem
Just thought I would do a quick update to show im here still :P

Weekend was boring, had little to do except get some rest, had the house to myself on sunday, well, Athina was there too, we had Pizza while i watched Family Guy. I also had to do some coursework, i needed to write a program for my circuit, it;s complicated, but i tihnk im coping well, although im getting some stick form friends because i don't act 'Spontaneous' enough =( bah.

I wish I was still up in Huntingdon, everyons so nice up there, i miss my Lil Sis, Debs rocks! Im chatting to her on Msn mind, so i can chat to her :) and it's always so much fun up there, I look forward to coming back soon. But Liam is there for here, and it;s been 3 months for them! So my best wishes to you both! =) I hopw it continues. Ya know, i really hope i can have some good luck and find a bgirl i can treat as well as Liam does. Sometimes it does get me down, but im coping. I hope to find comeone who i can appreciate.

anyway, chat soon =)

Keep the Faith friends :)

Chris xxx
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Apr. 24th, 2007 @ 09:45 pm 3 in a row
Current Location: Home
Current Mood: amused
Current Music: Blink 182: The Rock Show
a Little update to make sure everything is going swimmingly.

Got most of my pictures from Huntingdon onto myspace today, and so that ment a nice long chat with Debbie ^-^ so that means a good relaxing evening chatting to my lil sis ^-^. Shes updated hers too, with the lovely line.

"because once you can do nothing with friends, you know they're a good friend to have ^-^"

So true, we could just met up, relax, and it would still be a fun happy, funny time :) It's seeing Debbie after all ^-^. Although i reckon we out to make the X-Men films with our commentry like we did on saturday XD i bet they will be hits, and Debbie has the one true vision :P so they ought to sell out.

schools going well, got a bit tense for some reason, really odd, but coping well, revising for exams now :P

well thats it for today, just updating :)

Keep the faith friends

Bye ^^
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Apr. 23rd, 2007 @ 07:28 pm Huntingdon pictures
Current Location: Home
Current Mood: happy
Here are the pictures i took at Huntingdon, :) enjoy, copy and paste if needed :)



Debbie and me =) This was the best one



Debbie in her purple helmet =)



Debs on Tyson, he was raring to go =)



Another one of Debs on Tyson =)



Another one of Debs on Tyson =)



Liam, Debs and me just before i left =( i wanted to stay.



Liam, my new friend ^-^
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Apr. 22nd, 2007 @ 09:30 pm A wonderful weekend.
Current Location: Home
Current Mood: accomplished
Current Music: blink 182 - I'm lost without you.
My, the best weekend i have had for a while. let me describe to you all :)

I guess it begins with friday. The day of my car theory test, I had been revising for it like mad the past week, and my family had returned form holiday. dad dropped me off at the place once we found it, and i took a deep breath and entered, i remember all the advice given to me, and i did my best.

I passed. =D

So that was out of the way, the family was over the moon. I returned home, and packed my bags for my trip.

Yepp, i was on my back to Huntingdon to see a good friend, who is now so much like a sister to me that i consider her part of the family, yepp, i was off to see the brilliant Debbie, and to meet Liam for the first time. I had been nervous about meeting him, since i wanted to make a good impression and have no problems, luckily my fears were not to come true =) I had an uneventful journey, and Liam is a wonderful guy! =) He was so easy to talk to, good to laugh along with and chat about anything. He and Debs and lucky to have each other, and it felt like i had known him for years, Debs said he felt the same, and me and Liam are united in the common cause, and we both have Debbie has a strong precense in our lives, for Liam, shes a wonderful girlfriend to him, they care about each other, and it was good to see two people so happy, and as i said, Debs is like a sister to me ^-^ and i feel so glad to know her :)

So we took a detour thanks to roadworks, and went to the shop i bought a robe from :P and browsed, then i did my "Mocha on me." thing and got Debs and Liam Mocha each, sadly Costa had no cookies, but i got Debs a Chocolate muffin she seemed to like :), after i got some drinks and more enrgy, we went back to debs house, and chilled out, watched Kerrang or Scuzz, and disscussed ideas and history for stuff on XMR, while her bro fired stuff at us :P i got hit in the eye but i was fine, then we dined on pizza and chips and went back to TV, we had an X-Men marathon and that ment showing Liam X2, which he enjoyed, although X3 is the best one, and we took the piss out of Cyclops, :P i found out reecently that the girl who played Kitty Pryde (<3) in X2, an actress called Katie Stuart, had an LJ, i have seen it, and i really enjoyed reading it, it was a fascinating read :) and she sounds so mature and down to earth when i read it, i would like to get to know her a bit more :) i might add her to friends, not just because shes an actress and played my favorite X-Men, but simply as i found it such a nice read that i would love to find out more about her ^-^. hopefully, thats not too creepy, :)

I slept on the sofa that night, quite a comfy one too, woke up briefly about half 8 and saw Debs brother, who thought i had gone home :P, i went back to bed and woke up when debbie came down, we chatted for an hour, and it was nice to be able to do that :) we sang along to Tenacious D :P and i changed the line "Me and my brother Kyle." too "Me and my sister Debbie." :P Liam woke up so i tidied up the living room while debbie sqw to him, and we went to see Debs Horderide, and shes good, i always wanted to see her horseride and she can do it, shame Tyson was raring to go, he broke into trot every chance he got, Debs handled it like a pro i felt :) I also chatted with liam, much like i did with Debs earlier :) we returned home and sat and watched TV for a bit, i took some piccys which i will post on myspace or XMR when i can.

Sadly, i did not want to go, i held on till the last minute, we took a group shot, and i left with 25 minutes till my train, I almost forgot my phone but Liam caught up and gave it back, I had to run to my train, which ment debs might have seen my dart off, i hope she was not offended, i hate trains, they cause me to panic. I got there just as it pulled up =( i hope that Debs and Liam did not think i wanted to get away, Huntingdon is a great place and i really wish i could live there, but one day i shall, as Debs, Si, Liam, Hel and the others feel so much like family, I hugged Debbie twice and promised me and Athina will come up so we can all go camping together, man i wish i could just stay there, i love it there, no-one complains to me or judges me, it's all welcming and friendly, and this time nothing went wrong :) i can leave with a bigger smile as it was a flawless trip, no poor body language or silly drunkenness, a perfect weekend.

it was not over mind, i had to take an unfamiliar route home, thanks to the roadworks i was running most of the time, i had to catch a bus to Brimingham, which went well, i even helped a pregnant woman with my bags, i made it about an hour early :P so Debs was having a barbicue :P i wish i could have stayed, and got home later. But i could not have got another train =( But i made ti home safly and caught up with Doctor who, the Daleks were back.

So yes, a good weekend i could only wish was longer so i could stay with Debs and Liam, but it was great, and it was nice to meet a new friend and catch up with a very good one who i will know forever, debbie was reading my mnd a lot, i could tell she was snooping :P but it's not like i mind, she does her own thing ^-^ I look forward to coming back again, and this time i will not have aything to worry about,. esxpecially trains i need to run for ;) Maybe when i need to work in industy for a year i will pick Huntingdon, more time with the best friends an autistic kid could hope for, and so it;s a high standard met =)

so, untill next time, keep the faith friends ^-^
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Apr. 11th, 2007 @ 11:27 pm Hmmmm
Current Location: Home
Current Mood: confused
Current Music: Red Hot Chilli Peppers: Californication.
bored, so i needed something to do.

Revising for my driving test, which is next friday in the morning, i do hope i can pass this one, tests have been really shitty to me, and some good lukc should come my way. So im in school a lot also using that time to revise for my exams there. Since they show up in a month, and i hope i pass these too, im fed up of exams and poor luck, i just want to get to University and start afresh, a clean slate.

I broke up with my missus after two weeks, which was hardly suprising, i did not enjoy time with her, she did not take any initiative at all, hardly ever, when i was with Kate at least she could try to pipe up with ideas which ment a lot, she she was like a Kindred spirit, not with Gemma, i spoke ot her for 45 minutes about these issues, she only spoke for about 10 seconds, i took Debs advice about waiting and seeing, and Gemma still let me down. IM AUTISTIC PEOPLE!!!! it means my imagination is crap, i don't open up, i might not pay attention well in umfamiliar teritiry, i need the other person to open up to me so i can become easier going around them, why can;t i just find a girl who is understanding and tries to guide me along, im stuck otherwise =(. what gets me down is the general lack of awareness of autistics, it's like we are a different race and therefore suspicious, mankind never learns. Except for a select few.

Finally got my trai tickets to see Debs and Liam up in Huntingdon, damm Amazon had no gambit in stock, Debs has assured me it's ok, but i will get her and Si some chocolate, since they are such good friends and deserve it, sometimes i wiush i could live near those guys, they have been the few constants in my life, and have not once yelled at me, or gotten mad or walked out, they have always listened to me, and opened up to me. £ years is a long time for me to have friends, and im proud to call them sister and brother, as they are like family. Somtimes i wish i could get a picture of Me, Athina, Debs, Si and Liam, make 5 copies and frame them each, so we all have one, friends forever i hope. =) the train tickets for some reason threw me, on the way back, i take the train to Petergrough, the Bus to Birminghan, then the train to Cheltenham and then to Yate, this has set off alarm bells in my head, im not familiar with those places, so i hope im fine, or else im panicking and spending the night at a train station >.<

ok, i have ranted, see you all soon, someone comment =P
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Mar. 29th, 2007 @ 09:03 pm (no subject)
Current Location: My room
Current Mood: cheerful
Current Music: Trivium: Ascendancy
Shit it's been a while, i have not vented in so long, i guess i need to open up my shell once again for all those to enjoy. ^-^ well if you find my ramblings a turn on XD just kidding =)

well, not much going on in the britton household, the family is going on holiday next tuesday, so i get 2 weeks all to myself, ^-^ it's going to be fun, and the peace and quiet shall do me a world of good, i can chill out, and simply do what i like, perhaps i should get me a bottle of vodka and have a private party XD/

The only issue is that i can't go see Arsenal play, as i would need to shell out tons of money for trans, and there are a few home games i can go to, but then again, i will have the chelsea game to go to during may, so i won't moan, the rest will do me good. On another note, i met a girl called Gemma on a trip to Rileys,she was a friend of a friend, i asked her out and she said yes, now i seized the moment, but now im starting to regret it, for the record i never go after girls just for sex as i like meaningful relationships, and Gemma just is not cutting it, when we want to get romantic, it's well, shite, and i can't be open to her, there just is no emotional connection, and everything feels like a chore =( Debbie has advbised me on my problems as she always does, and very well too, and so im going to give it time, although it looks like this relationship is doomed to faliure. I just need to move on.

Trying to put this behind me, next month i will be returing to Huntingdon to see the one and only Debs, i promised a visit around Easter, and im not dissappointing her, im also bringing gambit with me =P and im sure she will bounce around the town in a dream, Love ya lil Sis! ^-^ In a way, i wish i lived in Huntingdon, as yate holds some pretty bad memories, i don't hate my parents, but all the friend i have up there are trustworthy, and have never let me down when i need them, and i felt more at home where, everyone was so welcoming and made me feel like a part of things. =) i get sad when i go, as i don't want to go lol. but i look back at my last trips up there with great fondness and happiness ^-^

anyway, i've ranted, bye!!
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Mar. 6th, 2007 @ 07:39 pm An epic Journey to rival voyager
oh man, aptain janeway eat your heart out! i have my own journey to tell. XD


Well, i better begin form the start, saturday started fof standard, slept in, me and dad left at about 10ish to go to Asburton grove to see the Arsenal play, the highlight being i have been approved to go see debs and co this easter, so i was happy :)

Oh, we won 2-1 :P

but anyway, the epic trip...

NB: will say later.
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Feb. 27th, 2007 @ 06:43 pm so, im 18
Current Mood: crazy
Current Music: Trivium: Ascendancy
So I turned 18 at last, finally, i can buy beer legally and not need to worry about where XD so i can help out at parties now.

So friday went well, i woke up early after going to bed early, making the most of things then, I picked up two games for my DS, two Evanesence Albums, Fallen and The Open Door, i ought to see if Debbie has any more of thier songs from their EP "Origin" and see if i can get them. I got loads of money from my grandparents and i spent that on a Star trek DVD and a Tenacious D album, sadly there was no sign of TNG series one, i was so annoyed i wish i could have blow up the mall XD. I was pretty much trying to make the most of the day, i preordered Command and Conquer 3, so to all you people out there "Kane Lives! Peace through power!" My mate Craig decided to give me a key with 18 on it, apparently he was sticking to tradition for me, bless him.

Sunday, in a sense was a mixed bag, i was going to my first cup final, the League Cup: Arsenal v Chelsea, Our Theo Walcott scored Arsenals goal, but sadly the scum got 2o goals back and then proceeded to start a big punch up which resulted in 3 players red carded, but what drove me to crackers was the train system in wales, it was bollocks!!! I spent 2 hours on it going back, scared, shaking and getting even more tense, my mates mark and Charlie helped me by calling, but as a result, i was 30 inutes late for my own party >.> but it was so fun, we all got drunk, tried absenthe :P and me and a few of the guys were singing in the back of a car on the way, IT WAS A GREAT LOAD OF FUN!

So there you go, my 18th :P i hope you enjoy.
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Feb. 20th, 2007 @ 10:47 pm Hi Hi
Current Mood: crazy
Current Music: REM "Shiny Happy People"
Yes, it has been a while, but Yate being Yate, anything that does happen ought to be a world event you can't miss, i ought to get Debbie to come down again, she will know how to make the place lively. Shes been very happy today, ber boyfriend agreed to be a poster boy. Bless them both, it's always good to see my friends happy :) and speaking of Debbie, i need to do an interview on here for her, if anyone wishes for me to intervew them, ask me so in my comments box ^^

1) Would you rather live in a matchbox or in a birdhouse?
Matchbox, it's much cooler and cleaner

2) What is your dream job?
An engineer, well a job where i an fiddle with technology

3) Are people who possess supernatural abilities real?
Oh yes, i know such people ;)

4) What song do you think best describes you?
ooh, toughie, there are so many, i would have to say Blink 182 "Im lost without you."

5) If you could choose any animal for a pet, what would it be?
A Giant Ant

There ya go Debs, im loyal to you as always. ^_^ all Hail and love Debs, NOW!

Not much happening here as i said, it;s my 18th on friday, so at last i can legally go into a pub and buy booze :P hooray! So if anyone wishes to send me greetings, please do ^^ i would love them a lot. I also have a Cup Final in cardiff to go to, so hopefully Arsenal shall kick Russian ass, heres hoping, plus i get the day off work, and seeing as it's half term, lie ins galore! apart from the trip to school to do DT work, but im ok with that.

So there, bye! ^_^


PS: someone comment, i need comments! =P
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Feb. 4th, 2007 @ 08:29 pm Hi
wow, it's been ages since i last updated, i guess it's helpful i have Debbie here to help me :P shes still a wonderfull friend.

So, what can i say, my exams are finally over untill this summer, i tihnk i did well, im sure i have passed them all and that will look good, i have had 4 conditionall applications for universities, so i am pretty spoilt :P and school is going well, my love life seems to be on the up as well. i have spent some time with a friend called Emma, she seems like a nice person, lets see how tihngs go, Kate and debs did say that i should have a better year, and i am inclined to agree with them.

I am 18 soon! :D yayness, going to have a big party during the half term. All my friends should be there. :) and by then i hope to have passed my theory test for driving. So all looks good i hope.

I hope to post more soon, im knackered now.

Bye
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Jan. 13th, 2007 @ 09:41 pm same as usual
Current Location: Home
Current Mood: amused
Current Music: Red Hot Chilli Peppers: By The Way
I stole this from Debs, XD

1. Elaborate on your default icon.
A random piccy Athina took :)

2. What's your current relationship status?
Single >.<

3. Ever have a near-death experience?
No

4. Name an obvious quality you have.
Im stubbornly loyal, debbie is my master untill i die :P

5. What's the name of the song that's stuck in your head right now?
RHCP: By The Way

6. Name a celebrity you would marry.
Amy Lee <3

7. Who will cut and paste this first?
I was the first to cut this from Debs

8. Has anyone ever said you look like a celebrity?
Nope

Do I wear a watch?
No, although im owed an X-Men watch :P

10. Do you have anything pierced?
No

11. Do you have any tattoos?
No

12. Do you like pain?
Hell no, i endure it each day

13. Do you like to shop?
Right mood for it

14. What was the last thing you paid for with cash?
Um..food

15. What was the last thing you paid for with your credit card?
I don't have a credit card

16. Who was the last person you spoke to on the phone?
my Nan

17. What is on your desktop background?
Hyperspace

18. What is the background on your cell phone?
Dennis Bergkamp shirt

19. What was the last movie you watched?
Grease

20. What was the last book you read?
Red Dwarf

I miss everyone in Huntingdon, i want to see them again :( and not make silly mistakes again

Bye
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Jan. 9th, 2007 @ 10:05 pm Update
Current Mood: calm
Current Music: REM: Shiny Happy People
A nie start to the new year, finished off a DT assignment to be handed in, im hoping to bump my DT grade up to a B. I only need 2 C's in Maths and DT to go to Harper Adams, so im positive, although Exams are coming >.< and im worried sick about them, i hope i pass this time.

Debbie broke up with richard, something which was sad to see, as i really felt they went well together, i was never jealous of them, as i knew them, respected and trusted them both deeply, i can hope they will remain happy. :) Im always around for my good friends. On a lighter note, Debs, Si and Rich might be spending a weekend in Yate for my birthday party! :D I do hope they can come, that would so rock, it would make it a weekend to remember, along with the other time i have seen them. Debs passed an Photograhpy assignment and texted me, to tell me, bless her heart :) it was good to see her happy.

I finished off the nuts today, i mean peanuts! Not balls :P dirty people XD plus im revising and on my DS lots and lots, i joined an Aspie dating site as well, i must remember to take care, and remember what Mum and Debbie have helped me with :) and things should go smoothly.

Ok, im off now, need sleep :P


bye xxx
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Jan. 3rd, 2007 @ 09:53 pm Grrrr!
Im fustraited again! Can't life leave off me for 5 minutes!!!!!!!!!
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Jan. 3rd, 2007 @ 07:24 pm A new year
Current Location: In my room
Current Mood: amused
Current Music: Trivium: The Crusade
Hurrah! it's 2007, a new year, and so a new beginning, despite the looming threat of A2 examsn, i am doing my best to be optimistic for the new year.Im simply hoping it will be better then last year, 2006 did have it's good moments, surviving AS levels, meeting Debbie ^_^ my season ticket, although i am hoping to erase the bad memories too.

Christmas went well, i was out at a party on the 24th, but i forgot where i lived so i ducked into a driveway when i got dropped off then ran home :P I got Trivium Albums, Ascention and The Crusade, im going to start getting Iron Maiden next :D, i got two red dwarf books, a remote control Dalek which my mum used to wake me up with :P I also got a Nintendo DS and 3 games, including a Brain training one, apparently my brain age is 42 :P for shame, and im starting to get into Sudoku now :P god help me, other gifts included chocolate, and a new alarm clock :P

Debbie sent us all Christmas cards as well, bless her forever, i had sent her Family ones, as well as Richard and Simon, and she sent us some, which i am going to keep safe forever. :) yes, im a bit obsessed, but when you get friends like that, you want to keep them forever, regardless if you might be a bit eccentric or now. :P

The new Year went down well, i had a few beers, watched Star trek and chilled out, nuff said i guess. Im hoping this year i might be able to find myself a girlfriend, maybe i should join that aspie dating site and see what comes my way :) although it's my birthday in under two months, i will finally be 18 :D, hopefully i will be able to have a party, the most likely faces to show up are

John, Mark, james, Russsell, Rome, Dave, Craig, Matt, and if they can make it down, Debbie, Simon and Richard! ^_^ I can't imagine celebrating a birthday without those 3, and i would love to have them down to stay for a couple of days, it would be fun :P with debbies sleep record lately, i could pair her with Athina and let them scheme :)

Ok, im back now, byee :)
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Dec. 16th, 2006 @ 07:27 pm Bored and worried.....
Current Mood: okay
Current Music: "Weird Al Yankovic" - Canadian Idiot
What can i say really, im bored, not exactly happy and about as exicting as a stuffed christmas roast who is still aware of it's predicament, forgive my choice of words, and in word words, im just not happy.

I had work for the first time in a month today, since i 'faked' illness to see an Arsenal game. we drew today, bah, work was tiring and fustraiting. Im hanging on for Christmas, although life feels shite again.

The only thing sustaining me? Weird Al yankovic songs, i remember how the guy makes me laugh, so with help from Debs and Richard i have about 14, so im listening to them over and over, it's one of the few things stopping me form utterly dispairing, im not sure why im down though, things just don't feel right, people say im paranoid, although try leading a life where you have been turned on my people you though were friends, it's bound to leave you edgy, since all i want to do is fit in, Debs, Kate, Gemma, Si and Rich are my cloest friends, forgive my paranoia but i don't exactly want to lose you guys. I care for you all.

Debbie sent me a random text about christmas, so i pass it back to her, Ana and Gemma :P although i've been worried about her lately, she seems quiet and not talkative, although i've asked her and she says she is fine, so i have left it at that. I don't want to pressure her at all. And im trying to have a good evening chatting to her. Although i love consistancy, and when it gets changed i worry, im just keeping my eyes open.

I have found an aspect of humanity which i find confusing. I decided to post it here in case someone knows how to answer it. The issue is this.

There have been instance in my life when i have gotten close to a girl near home and just when i felt things were going smoothly, things go wrong ( This has not happened in over 2 years though, but it still confuses m, but anyone inside the last two years don't worry, you have done nothing wrong. ). Im not a pervert, i don't shag anything on two legs, although the fact is that if someone shows me kindess i appreciate it a lot, normally people don't give me the time of day in Yate ( shit hole ) and it seems that when i develop feelings for a girl, i get this response. "Oh your sweet Chris, but im happy just being friends." I can take it, i can appreciate thier feelings and i never force people into anything and i always respect other peoples feelings, but im a kind guy, i care for peoples feelings, i look after my friends, i watch out for them, i listen to them, and im loyal to no end, what more do people need? Im not mad, but it confuses the hell out of me. I wish i knew how to understand what it is i do to women. sometimes AS has side effects i dislike. If anyone can explain please do

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Dec. 11th, 2006 @ 09:15 pm The Happy version
Current Mood: pleased
Current Music: Nirvana: Smells Like Teen Spirit
Ok, the other version was the unhappy version, simply brecause i needed to let off steam, The divine one seems to have cleaned up the worries, so this is the happy version too lighten the mood, and so i don't need to act like a depressed Lemming :P

Ok, so I was annoyed about my train being late, i legged it from Paddingdon to the underground, and i missed pole dancing, Bah! ( Please send me pics of that to brightly me up XD ) but i got off and was given a hug by debbie, and saw Si and Rich again, we then proceeded into town, and i bought us all mocha, and i also got Debbie some Unicorns! XD and got another big hug :) i was only one brave enough to get them and it made us all laugh, that was followed by more horse liberation and my biying a velvet overcoat, i was told i was reminded of Harry Potter a bit, but i suited me, so i bought it, cue a lot fo rushing around to find an ATM machine which worked, and put everyone in stiches :P but we got it in the end, so i will wear it, next time im getting a leather tenchcoat

The party did go well despite the worries, we played Buzz and i was shit! XD i came last and i was going ok, i did ok on some things, i was a victim on my own smugness i guess XD and i also was crap at drunk twister XD i was out fo that quickly, but it was a good time, i talked to debs brother and Si kept me awake :P i slept little. I missed pole dancing and more toplessness XD Bah

Sinday was ok, woke up at about 7 exhausted, so managed anotuer half hour of sleep and Si cooked Pizza for breakfast, and we tried to make pancakes and tasted like yorkshire pudding XD, they wre tasty but me and Mousie agreed they must be expanding inside, we got more guests although Si had to leave, sadly :( i miss that guy, although i met Emma, one of Debs good friends, nice person, then we all went to a park and tried to climb up a slide, i almost made it but i slid backwards, i somehow kept my Balance, Debbie assures me i will see it on youtube soon enough XD but i had fun, i went home about 2:20 and hugged Debs godbye, and caught some early trains to made it home about 7:30, and everyone tried on my coat.

Im coming to terms with how i acted on saturday, since i admit i went to peices, it will probably be a few days before im clean, but it means J2O for me next time :) things should be normal soon :P

Thats the happy version :0 enjoy

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Dec. 11th, 2006 @ 06:23 pm i hate my luck
Current Mood: pissed off
Current Music: My Chemical Romance: Welcome to the Black Parade
So i went to Huntingdon again, i was looking forward to it too, i was so exicted, and it was good to see everyone again, but like I did last time I fucked it up big time, and again i came home unhappy and stupid, i got a mention in Debbies journal about how some people went OTT and pissed people off, which went to conform what i feared, just for being me people got unhappy. Yes, i take the blame for dirnking when i should not have, and i do admit that i lost control of myself, and i feel very bad because of it. Debbie has told me to just forget about it, and im trying to look at the good times, but i feel bad, im reminded of what i did last time i saw debs, once again i made a mistake, once again i have abused the trust placed in me, and i've not told my parents, the damage i caused before caused me no end of grief, and it seems i always muck things up, and i feel ashamed of myself, why do i bother? It took me weeks to sort myself out last time i got home, and once again i was stpud and acted like a complete asshole. Im depressed, upset, and im reflecting badly, im scasred it's a carbon copy of my last visit. Im scared i will be having the same troubles. Why can't people just put up with me, i never really mixed well after that, i was quite silent for the rest of the trip. What on earth should i do? I know it was my gault, but i annoyed others, and i was not able to talk to others.
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